I don't know anything other than stress. I am in a constant state of panic. It is always there and always making me worry and I am only one step away from breaking down at any moment.
I am so close and so far and there are so many things to juggle I don't know if I can handle it.

VerusMaya II

Halfway done with this semester, internet. Just ~6 more weeks and then I am done with freshman year. In retrospect it's gone by fast, but then it always appears that way. Not so much when I'm living it ( Read more... )

Hello internet.

Things have been going exactly how I expected them to go, which is to say spectacularly poorly. I ended the semester with a 2.8 GPA, and I need a 3.0 to keep one of my grants. There's a whole, largely unrelated, story to this, but in the end what it comes down to is that this semester I need to make a 3.2 so it averages out... or ( Read more... )

I'm slowly losing grip on... my academics? My motivation? My motivation to work on my academics? I'm failing philosophy because my prof won't put in certain grades until the very end (conveniently the grades I need to not fail). If it weren't for my lab grade, I'd be failing mechanics too. I'm on a downward slope to fail art (skipped 2.5 classes ( Read more... )

Well I'm not dead, but my body is telling me I am.（ ´,_ゝ`) Zombie? Very likely.

Otacon (Matthew/myboyfriend.gif) is now a 4th dan (degree) black belt! :D Here he is jumping 7 pads, totaling about ~4.5 feet height, to break a board in a flying side kick. The best part, he wasn't even planning on board breaking for his test, just forms. Kyaa~ Σ(ﾟДﾟ ( Read more... )

Being left to my own devices have largely worked out with the sole exception of my food intake.

I frequently don't eat, opting to sleep in later/nap and still get to places on time. When I do eat, it is minimal in nature (rice, some soup) or horribly snacky (microwave mac 'n cheese, poptarts ( Read more... )

College hasn't killed me yet! I live on ( Read more... )

Dear internet ( Read more... )

HI I'M STILL ALIVE sort of, ugh college is killing me already and I haven't even moved in guys, fo realz ( Read more... )

Geez, been a while, huh lj? Suppose that's not a surprise ( Read more... )